How does one lie change your life?

You wouldn't think saying no when you should say yes would change you.
You wouldn't think it makes any difference.
But this one did.
Why did it?

Because this lie was and important lie.
Because by lying about it I said that I didn't know what was going on.
Which means I couldn't talk about it.
And that my family couldn't talk about it with me.
All because I lied!

By lying I began a life of exclusion.
Any time my parents or family had to talk about my brother or what happened I was asked to leave the room.
Any time I wanted to talk to someone about what happened I couldn't because they didn't know.
And any time I wanted to cry about it or did cry about it, I couldn't tell anyone why.

All because I lied and kept lying.
All because I lied and said no when I should have said yes.

I survived my lie.
But I wouldn't wish anyone my life.
I am a survivor of child molestation, but I lived my life as a victim.
But NO LONG!
No longer will I let this rule my life.

But first I have to tell my story.
And here is the beginning.